Tuesday, June 30, 2009


I realized this morning that I forgot to measure and weigh myself last week when I turned 32 weeks. So, I got up this morning and did it. Hoping that since I had been up all night throwing up (because of a migraine) I would weigh a little less.....I gained 11 pounds in 1 month!!!! HOT DAMN...I can only hope that it is all baby fat, but I'm not stupid enough to believe that! I better lay off of the EL Fudge cookies and the Taco Bell/Bueno(says the girl who just brought home a giant piece of cheesecake from Cheesecake Factory)!

I go to the doctor tomorrow morning and I am praying....PRAYYYYING that he tells me that my cervix has changed. I need to hurry up and get this over with so I can have a margarita and hit the gym. My waist started at 26 inches and now it's an astonishing 41 inches.....can you imagine how my self esteem is at the moment?!?

Friday, June 26, 2009

First, let me post my new 32 week picture:

I really don't have anything new to blog about. We have just been busy getting everything finished. I finally won the argument with the company in Virginia that I ordered some decorations from, so those are scheduled to be delivered on the 29th. That will be the final decorations for the nursery, so once I get them hung on the wall I will take some pictures and post them. Here is what we have for now:

This is the chest with the butterflies that we found. They technically don't go with our bedding, but I couldn't resist...what girl doesn't like sparkly butterflies?

This is Addison's crib....We couldn't find any letters that we liked here in town so we ordered the letters from a company in Canton and they custom made them for us.

Ashlyn's crib....look familiar!?!

This is the window treatment that my mom made out of ribbons. Because of the lighting, you can't see it very well. It just adds a little extra color to the room and it sparkles in the sunlight.

The toybox and the rug.

Bookshelf...I went to my parents house and raided my old bedroom. I found the hat box and the picture frame in there!!

We also got the playroom decorations hung. That was a big job, but my cousin was super helpful and I pretty much just sat there and watched them work! We still have to clean up in there, so ignore the mess:

The bookself that we bought...then I glued some decorations onto it to make it match the room.

My mother in law told me about a week ago that there is a bassinet in their family that is over 60 years old. I had been contemplating getting something to put in our bedroom for the first few weeks...by no means do I want to make a habit of the babies sleeping in our room...I just thought it would be handy to have for the beginning. Anyway, she drove a total of 6 hours to pick up this bassinet to bring to our house. It needs a little work, but it is SO cute and I think it will work perfectly. My mom and I went to the fabric store and bought foam to make a bumper. We decided to use a drapery panel that matches my crib bedding for the fabric in the bassinet. I think it will turn out really pretty, but most of all it has a lot of sentimental value and I think its special that the girls will get to sleep in there. Here is the undecorated version....although we did find a sheet that fits in there:

For 60 years old...not too shabby, huh? It has been refurbished by Ryan's grandfather who passed away about 3 years ago. Also, Ryan has twin cousins who slept in this bassinet, as well as all of his aunt's and I think his mom as well! It means a lot that we have it now!

I also need to mention that I got our "coming home" outfits delivered. I custom ordered them from a company called Haute Socks. They are are Brownstone Village and Brandi(the owner) is amazing. She made the cutest outfits for the girls. The burp cloths are almost too cute to let them vomit on!! Here are a couple of pictures:

Last but not least, I decided to order "welcome home" signs to put in our yard for when the girls come home. I know I could rent the big storks, but I wanted something that I could keep. I had these made, this is the proof of what they will look like. We are planning to put balloons with them to make them look more baby-ish. But I love them and I'm real excited!!

Well, I had more than I thought I had to report on! I went back to the doctor 2 days ago and he predicted that I have between 2 to 3 1/2 more weeks left. He said my blood pressure will start to sky rocket here in the next couple of weeks and he said that more than likely I will go in for one of my weekly visits and he will tell me to go to the hospital immediately because of my blood pressure. He told me to get ready and stay ready because they can come anytime. I have predicted July 10th for months...so we will see if I'm right!?! He also said that I will more than likely have a c section since only 1 baby is head down. Which is ok with me....I honestly don't care how I get them out!! Thats about it for now. I will post more pictures later on!!

Thursday, June 11, 2009


Its only a $15 walmart plastic pool, but it sure is better than nothing!! I have been trying to layout and get a tan for summer....since tanning beds have given me headaches ever since I have been pregnant. But it has been so hot outside that I couldn't stay out long enough to get any darker. I have wanted a pool for years and finally I jokingly told Ryan to go buy me a walmart pool....and he actually did!!! Here I am laying in the backyard. This picture is humiliating, but its too funny to keep to myself! I am 28 weeks pregnant in this picture. The part that you cant see is that I am facing a wrought iron fence that looks onto another street, so basically the entire neighborhood can see me letting my whale belly hang out!!

I tell you, its the best $15 we ever spent!!

6 weeks longer....are you kidding me???

So I went back to the doctor yesterday. He checked my cervix and said that it still hasn't changed since the first time I began thinning out. He then says to me,"I think you will get to 34 weeks with no problem". Thats fine....great in fact. 3 weeks will fly by! But then Ryan has to open his big mouth and say "we really need to hold off until about 36 weeks....is that possible you think"? I guess Ryan is thinking about the NICU costs since we have a $5,000 deductable. The less time they spend in there, the more money we save. But the doctor replies with, "yes, I think you can make it. But at the 34 week mark we will take them with no question, should there be any issues". I am frustrated and uncomfortable and I don't think I can take it any longer. I mean I can handle 3 more weeks...maybe even 4. But 5 or 6 more....I DON'T THINK SO!!! It would be great, but I am just being selfish and saying ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.....lets set a date and take these little things out of me!!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Emotional Basketcase

I am now a little over 29 weeks(7 months, 1 week). I forgot to take my 28 week picture, so here it is...a little late:

OH MY LORD! It still shocks me that I am this huge. I don't realize how much my belly sticks out until I see these pictures. People always tell me that I am so tiny for having twins...but what they aren't saying is that if I was only having 1 baby I would be the size of one of those seals that sunbathe on the San Francisco pier.

I go in for my glucose test tomorrow at the doctor. It seems kind of silly to me considering that I know I don't have diabetes. But I can't convince the doctor of that. I never updated about the fetal fibronectin tests that I am supposed to be getting every 2 weeks. We got the bill from the lab in the mail the day after we agreed that we will have the test done every 2 weeks.....$636--FOR 1 TEST!!!! So needless to say, we are not getting those done anymore. Instead he is giving me a pelvic exam every week and he checks my cervix. Ryan calls this my "manual"! LOL, he always asks if Dr. Greve gave me the manual today. I am ok with this because it is free and that is always a good thing!!

The stress of everything has finally hit me. I look around this house and see how unorganized and messy everything is....I go to the tanning salon and realize that I have 3 employees to train as well as train someone to do the airbrush tanning too. Yesterday I was blow drying my hair and Ryan came into the bathroom and said something about "I just want to tell you this, but it doesn't mean we have to do it anytime soon..." Well that's as far as he got because I broke down into tears and lost all capability of thinking clearly. I sobbed and said,"please don't put anything else on my plate, I can't handle it. My life is spiraling out of control!!" Come to find out, all he was going to say was that he had a guy coming out to give us a bid on building a retaining wall in the backyard!! We had a good laugh about it. But the fact still remains that I barely have my head above water and I am stressing out SO bad!

I have decided that I am only going to work for 2 more weeks....so the week of the 15th will be my first full week off. I know I need to slow down and rest for the remainder of my pregnancy. But my cousin is also coming into town that week, so I am going to spend time with her and my family. She lives in Albuquerque, so we don't get to see her much and I am so excited that she is coming!!

That's all for now...I don't have much time to blog very much but I will do it again when I need to vent about something else!!! LOL--EVERYONE KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED FOR ME AND PRAY THESE BABIES DON'T COME BEFORE I AM READY!!!